Lots of tings is running around my big head. Especially Olevel. I dun understand a shit!. for nw the onli sub dat i cn cope wif is English n Malay n i have 3 more sub to go wif 5 more month left. Im sux at Science, Math n Pure Geography. Last wk, i onli spent 4hrs of sleep in 3days juz to catch up wif my Olevel n end up sleeping session at sch library during lunchtime. Few days back, been sleeping late toO n i will end up late for every class.. It wasnt easy for sumbody dat didnt touch sec education for 3 years.. People keep sayin dat "Its easy, Its easy".. Try to be in my shoe n den u cn say whether its easy for me or nt.. Plz, nt helping.. haiz.. how i wish i could juz reverse time n nt apply for olevel.. Shit!!..

Earlier on, waitin for train otw to trainin, terserempak wif my old time lepak2 fren, NANA, wif her tunang.. She is a changed person.. Nt like the last time i used to saw her.. haha. Juz wish u all the best in yr future ahead.. Jgn lupe jemput aku. August eh? haha.

What Ahmad Zaki Means

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Hapi birthdae to me..

My sister give me a Canterbury Shirt. Fuck.. Canterbury sia.. ok..
B4 the clock strick 12am, i nt in the mood for my birthdae.

Since fridae of karaoke, i was depress all the way till 2dae. tinking for my x. coz fridae i went to places dat remind me of our sweet n bad memories.. Until i keep on repecting to my frens dat i miss my x. I wish i could met her.. Since been a 1wk she keep silences on me.

Den wen i saw her online, i saw a phrase dat wrote on her msn nick. im heart broken. Wen she wish me hapi birthdae i was glad dat she remember my birthdae. Bt i still depress tinkin of her n also wat see wrote n also tis year birthdae is nutin so special to me. Den she tink dat i have a fight which whoever or sumbody. She tink dat i have a gf or a crush. Bt i tol her off for the last time dat i dun have a gf. Den she tol me dat wenever like tis, I show attitude n she sick of it. Like im nt showing attitude. im juz misses her alot alot n if can i wanna cheer up around her presence. If she could understand how i felt. I was like realli heart broken n hurt. to be honest, i actually cried wen she say dat. Up to people who wanna believe me or nt bt i did. Den she say she sick n tired of all my dramatic melody all. Wen i heard dat, i juz switch off my comp n went out the hse to relax myself. Call anyone dat can lepak wif me bt end up wif haiqel. Thanks bro.. I juz cant believe she said dat whereas im rite nw, realli miss her alot n hoping dat i could tell her dat how much i miss her n also i wish dat i could hug her.. It juz wreck my heart.

Nw, i dun noe whether i want to go for thursdae nite class. Or mayb i feel like wanna to cancel my olevel.. im so heart broken... i noe im weak at tis. People will say dat i ned to be strong n move on. Well, im tryin my best. If anyone 3 years of relanstionship can be forgotten juz like dat, plz approach me n tell me wat is yr secrect.. i miss her alot...