2dae i feel so damn lazy n tired to wake up early to go class at 8am. Skip class. Woke up at 9am. Go to sch stakat for swimming test. Kental sia!. Never in my ITE life have swimming test. Penat sia da lame tk swim. Haiqel was ahead infront wheares me n nad like slowly at the back. I dun noe if i passed or nt. If failed, ned to do 10wks of lesson of swimming durin PE. Sape mau layan. Den we was given like 10min to have fun on the pOol. Maner cukup. aru nk puas main air da kene naik. nvm. still have melville park pool. haha

Den i went study wif nad under her blok near Greenview sec. She help me wif my combine science. Few hrs of studyin wif empty stomach, Kol mac delivery. Actually at 1st nad dun wanna eat bt wen she had done wif her "big bussiness", her tank is empty. Standard for her. Perut Straight. haha. Den instead of continue studyin, end up chit chating den her fren pass by. Lepak till 6pm. Wen hm, relax for awhile, met khai under my blok..

FRIDAY KARAOKE OOOO... haha..

Make it short. 2dae was a tiring day. Start skoOl at 930. Finish at 5pm. den rush for nite class at yio chu kang sec, start at 7pm. finish at 945pm. reach hm at 1130pm. . Damn shag. sKool so far so gd. Nite class always like a burden for me bt nvm, sacrifice for more 6months.

My x Dee was mad at me coz i went out study wif zee n a pic of nad. Although she keep on dening tings bt i noe dat she still do care. Although she mad at me, bt i noe the reason y. Im nt being ego bt i noe aft 4 years knowing her. I love u dee. U still my best princess ever. Although sumtimes she kinda pain in the ass, bt i still love n misses she doin dat..

Early morning wen to madrasa at Masjid Al-Taqua. Chef Bob who is the Chef celebrity was invited to share his life experiences n motivation. He was sharing his journey how he become a chef n wat motivate him to do so even though he had a health problem which did nt stop him from doin his passion. His word do really motivate me. "If you have passion for sumting, juz do it n aim it. Coz passion is wat u enjoy doin even though there will be gd n bad terms... Money, fame n glamour will nt give u happyness. Onli Family, Frens n yr passion could give u happyness" Rite nw my passion is wif my Performing Arts n i enjoy doin it bt its juz a performance n it will nt go far. In Career wise, i still have no idea. There alot of tings i wanna be bt cant make up my mind. I planing wanna study in Design or Hospitality bt did nt turn out well. haiz.

Wen back hm, the previous plan was to go study Olevel wif Ice, Hafiz, Dee n wif the foreigner students. Smue ye ye mcm phm nk blajar last2 tk jadi. bt hafiz reply me say he sick, Ice did nt reply me, my x like last min go out n the foreigner students dun noe wat happen. Den i decided to kol nad bt she bz, Understandable. End up i went study wif zee, so call my "cousin", coz she noe i wanted to go study 2dae n she ned help wif her studies too. Plan to met her around 3pm @ bedok interchange n study at bedok library but last min she had to met wif her galfren n change to 5pm n again to 530pm. I end up waiting for her at least 1 hr. Sampai ngantok. N she got lectured frm me. hahaha

b4 dat,

A grp of "MATS" seating beside me was talking abt gals. Saying sumting abt cute looking gal go for better guys n stuff. Tey sound like gay shit.. haha. i feel like wanna laugh it out loud at their face. Nt coz of the gay shit, bcoz nw tey start to realise dat tey ar ugly n a nuisance to the public.. haha. Den i saw Zee n she was smiling at me bt those mat tink dat she was smiling at them n tey start to flirt coz she look like a typical minah bt actually she nt. Bt wen zee approach to me, She talk to me in english n tey suddenly become so quiet n stared at us... haha. Wif my Shirt Collar was up, we walk away to bedok library. Mcm action ar.. haha. Bt Zee, she nt interested wif guys. xcept dat she was close to me, lain ar..

Aft studying, she insisted me to go to her hse n eat. ( NO DIRTY STUFF AR). I reject her offer bt she keep on sayin like "Da kuar ngan anak dare org, tk nk antar alek depan umah" haha. Fuck sia. I told her dat i will send her to her blok onli. Bt wen we reach under her blok, her bastard she say " I dun mind waiting until u send in front of my gate". I though she was jokin, so i purposely stay for 10min. N she do realli wait.. Nabei. No choice i send her to her gate. Den she ask me to masok. Kiwak segan sia nk masok ngan her family member at hm. She SABO me n ask her dad to call me in. Kiwak. haiz. No choice. mkn aje ar. Her family n my family is nt related bt the bonding wif both family since the kampung days tey treat each other like their own family..

Aft dat, met my buddies at our usual place n den i went hm... Sampai disini aje la. So sorry if tis entry is long.

ps: tink twice if u wana sabo me again ar..... Dirty little secret. hahaha

Skool start at 8am. Wake up at 730am, Enter class at 9am. haha. Superb. Den got to noe from my fellow mate dat we will be realise early. Alamak, tau tk dtg. Class realise at 9.50, i tink. Wen to have ''breakfast'' wif my fellow mates which end up i went to eat at other place wif khai coz tey dun wanna follow.. Den Nad ask to accompany her to White Sand to buy Car Coupon for her brother. Had a nice chat wif her. Cheerful Person. Nw, if i wanna buy limited edition shoe i noe who to approach. haha. Aft dat, wen back hm 1st den head to gym at Melville. I dun noe y like so sudden i wanna head back to gym. Mayb of the motivation from watching Contender Asia or i realli2 want to trim down coz aft i receive my NS enlistment letter.

Wen back hm, damn shag to go for nite class at ITE BISHAN bt luckly Hafiz was kind enough to tompang hm. I got to noe dat he have nt been sleeping for the whole dae. I keep on asking him whether he can ride or nt. On the road, its me who keep on bangging to his helmat, almost feel asleep. haha. Nw i tink i noe y alots of motorist accident at PIE. Coz the surface of the road is bumpy. almost off from the seat many times.

The best part durin the class, he was too tired to study n went sleep at the next door classroom which is empty n end up got lock inside coz tey did nt notice him. haha. luckly his hp was on kalo tk, sampai bsk ar.. haha. Went to general office ask to release him. haha. Wen back hm tompang him, wif his riding skill, i can be a dead man. haha. Thank bro..

2mr will be a long ass day for me. Got class 2pm @ ITE Clementi. den will head to DK training. haiz. Starting to learn time management..

Mawar n Nad. Aft a tiring day of work out in the gym, hangout at cafe 2 n snap sum pictures. A brain of mine start to work aft dat. Picture edit done by me!!













A little Payback edit done by Nad. Bluek





















Compared to my Engineering class wif onli a few malays, i love my New ICT class. Full of crappy n idiot people. haha. Tey ar juz as happening as ever. Everydae will be a full of laughter. Like a must ting to do. haha. Wish i could spent my whole day wif them. I tink we will have a joyful 2 years together..

RECEIVE NS ENLISTMENT LETTER. Entering on 6 june. Army man. haha. Have to defer coz of sch. Ikot hati mmg nk masok aje. abes lincah2. tk payah pikir2 agi. haiz. Mondae skOol ned to settle up sum defer paper. Leceh mans.

Yesterdae, went to padang to watch a Under-20 friendly rugby match SRC vs Northern Knight n supposely watch wif my bakal abg ipar bt dier punye 20min sampai abes game. Bt cant blame him coz he had work. Had a chat wif him n gain sum rugby knowledge coz he used to play rugby. Insyallah kalo ader mase train wif him n his brothers who 1 of them is a National Rugby Player. Alamak. haha.
Actually wanted to join rugby for quite long time bt to many commitments all n back den im nt sure who to ask for. Nw planing to join SRC bt mayb next year aft i complete my Olevel. Bt nw i oredi join ITE touch rugby. huhu.. Gain knOwlegde abt it n experience it. Since i oredi nOe sum people there shuld be ok.

Aft den, lepak at peninsular jap. check out boOts n shoes. I loOkin for tis lOok like Nike Air Trainer 2 SB Shoe. Bt still cant find it. Its like a multi purpose shoes which can be used for running, sports n also nice to wear. I seem my fren wear dat shoe n tol me its a limited edition n cost abt $200+ wen he 1st bought it. Nwdaes i been like a Nike Shoes mood. Like crazing for more Nike Shoes especially Nike Air Force or Nike Jordan. Juz love their design.

Den pick my sister, head hm, den got sick. cant stop sneezing n sniffing until 2dae. haiz. Well hope 2mr will be a better dae.

P.s: happy2 babdae NaD, Later will blanje u yr nasi-Burger King-Noodles. haha.

Yesterdae, b4 i head to class, been lecture by my parent abt wat i shld do n nt do coz tis year is hard work for me Hnitec n Olevel.. haiz.. tey keep on repecting the same ting n im old enough to tink.. dat is y sumtimes i tink i made a wrong choice taking Olevel.

Otw to Yio Chu kang. Dam the rain.. Make me inconvience to walk around Yio Chu Kang. 1st wen to SSCD for Trial Test. Failed again. been taking tis twice. Fail by 2 marks. SHit.. Haiz. ned to retake again. Den start to rain heavily again n there is no shelter link to the interchange like fuck up. i oredi late for my Olevel class n juz dash under the rain. Reach SkoOl all wet. Shit. Uncomfortable to study. At class, the teacher like dun noe how to teach. i was spending my time in class all confused of wat he teaching. Same for the rest. The more we ask, the more we ar confused. haiz. wat to do.

On the way back hm taking bus 72 to tampines interchange, tersempak wif nadia n alif. Alif pickin nadia up at NYP aft tarian. Tey was shock to found out dat i broke up wif my x. n tey ar the numberless of people to say dat me n my x ar like a perfect couple. Tings had happen. Nt our fate to be together. People change.

Den 2dae, went to skoOl late. Class start at 8am, wake up at 830am, reach skoOl at 930am, class ended at 11am. How super it can be.. Den found out dat the next class is cancelled.. Fuh. puas hati tk ya pegi skola. haha. Den wen back wif my new class mate.. be a socialise person, get to noe them better as tey will be yr classmate for 2 years.. Den tey found out dat im taking my Olevel n Nadirah offered to help me wif my Olevel. See 1st eh.. haha..

I miss my baby dee so much. Bt aft wat i been throught around me. I was like stress up all. Had a chat wif my baby dee online. Tings wasnt goin dat well between us.. n i can sey she may have move on.. Dat have left a big mark on me.. To let her noe dat i still love her alot. Its up to her if she wanna wait for me or nt.. I dun wanna sey much.. I love u. Rite nw, my morale is like been crush every single day wif tings happening around me.. haiz.

Mayb sum was suprise to see me back in ITE College East coz most noE dat i cant make it through to ITE Hnitec. Last min admit per.. haha. Wen reach to reporting area, check my name in which class i be admited. Den my name nt in every class so approach to Section head, i was asked to pay my school fees first coz my name is nt registered yet. Aft paid sch fees, wen for orientation which always the boring ting wen 1st dae of skOol. Get to noe class. Surprisingly one of my dk fren same class as me coz he have to retake.. haha. During the orientation, the malay boys, always the rebellious grp tryin to "Cabot" bt the Brigade leaders always tailing us.. haha. Kalahkn Mas Selamat.. Den aft lunch, i was like to lazy to continue the orientation n wen hm..

Nw, i have to many commitment. Main Priority is my Olevel, Hnitec. Nw its time for me to concentrate on my studies. Less playing. Bt Nakal still there. Khai ask me to join the Touch Rugby CCA coz mostly of the people i Noe n Kecoh sia.. haha. Bt important wateva i do nw, i ned to stay focus n study hard. My 1st thought was nt to join Hnitec coz will make me stressful n also there sum reason i dun want to. Wif help of few people, i tink for nw is the best i can do for the future.. Like yasin say, "At least u will have N level, Olevel, Nitec n Hnitec. Complete all yr studies.." Kecoh pe smue cert. Insyallah wanna add Diploma in my Cert collection. hehe.

I will always cherish tis word said by my baby dee, "Study coz for the future. without all tis, u cant be success 1 dae" i love u dee..

Juz received letter from ITE CE saying dat i been offered to Hnitec in Wireless Technology.. ok. Fuck i oredi paid for Olevel.. Shld i take Both at the same time or shld i reject ITE offer.. I want to take Hnitec bt also i dun wanna waste time on ITE. If i take both, i will be more brain dead.. HELP!!!

Went for all my Olevel class oredi.. Tuesdae Science class, the teacher teach like damn slow n he like no confident wif his own teaching. Spent to much time on Chemistry den Physics. Wednesdae English class, so far so gd. Thursdae Math class, I cant catch much abt math as my brain is slowly start to reprocess back since 3 years bt luckly my baby dee is there same class as me n she help me alot on math. *I LOVE U*. Friday Geography class, i realli lose on everyting coz the teacher tend to jump topics to topics n make me confused. Saturdae malay class, Surprisingly Cikgu Kadir used to teach at my old skool, Siglap sec is my teacher for malay. So far ok bt the class alot of MAKCIKZ.. haha.. haiz.. n im getting bored of keep on topping up my ezlink n travel around singapore almost everydae. Ned to sacrifice more..

N to let everybody noe dat, i still love my x no matter wat had happen in the passed n watever people say to me.. Bt i juz worried abt her wif her current guy aft wat i saw on mondae, (sumting happen), n for me her guy like sum "Psycho" (SORI DEE). Yelah, sape tk bingit caught the gf wif the x. N wat he did n wanted to do was like a life-threatening to himself. Came on man, dat nt the way n its my 1st time aft 4 years i saw my x, she look damn frighten n scared wif the bf. N i also worried abt her safety, space n freedom. She oredi hav personnal problem wif her parent n plus her guy like adding more. haiz. i did nt expect a 26 year old guy is doin tis....

P.S: "Im doing wat u told me to coz of u nt coz im afraid wif yr guy"

1st ting 1st, Thanks to Cik Nur again for inviting me to her place mkn n to collect her Husband`s Clothes .Sum is quite new. N Sum is quite a Good Quality n i mean realli gOod Quality.. Grab few Shirt n Pants. My fav is the smart wear. I realli look like a boss n i tink anisah kinda like to see me dat way.. I can tell aft noeing her 4years. I 1st though juz to collect my boOks for Olevel n juz grab 1 or 2. Skali sampai 1 big bag mcm nk lari umah. haha. den had to wen back hm 1st den wen for my lesson. mcm siak..



Head to Yio Chu Kang Sec for my 1st Olevel Science lesson. The best ting is wen i ask people for direction to the sch n i receive the answer as the same if i juz find myself. Pointless for asking. In the end, i juz walk around in the rain. haiz.. 1st day start lesson, Chapter 3: Atoms. Alamak. I missed 2 Chapter.. Ned to brush up main. Physics Chapter 3: Force.. Shit.. Nie aru Science. Lum agi Math n Geo.. Die.. nvm.. Can make it.. Finish at 10pm.

Reach hm. Chill, mkn. den my parent came back n lecture me abt i shld quit my job n concentrate Olevel. Lum agi pape tey oredi presure n stress me up.. haiyo. I noE wat im doin.. Im Noe how to tink all. haiz... 2mr, i will be workin from 10am to 3pm den aft dat have English lesson at ITE simei at 7pm to 10pm.. English Comprehesion, Composition, Summary. BERKARAT. haiz. nvm try2.

PS: Onces a Sotong always be a sotong... sape yg terase tu phm2 aje la eh.. hahaha

Make it short.. I did nt make it to Hnitec aft been rejected twice. n i tink is waste of time juz keep on waitin. I register myself for Olevel. Wif 4 different sch under 1 Centre. ITE Simei, Bishan, Clementi n Yio Chu Kang Sec. i will be travelling around in S`pore to take my Olevel lesson. Habes ler duit gaji on transport. Kalo ader lesen kn bagus. *hint hint* (SoOn)... N i dun Noe whether i sOon continue wif my workin or nt or change work dat less stressful n tiring. Seriously, I dun Noe wen the last time i step fOot at town or Bugis. Wat i can remember is during Countdown. Tu aje.. Mcm tkde life.. Bt wat to do, Like sumbody told me, "Reality is Harsh".. Juz ned to take it wif patience.. N im happy dat Anisah is willing to help me wif my Os. By tis, at least i could spent time wif her, although nt like happy times, bt least sumting.. n i still love her so much.. I have my reason y.. n i hope she will be the same person dat i noe n be a better person wen she had enter RP...

Big thanks u to Cik Nor( Anisah`s mum) for blanje me at simpang bedok wheres she is tired n she can eat at hm which she did cOOk. N she is super nice to me. 2mr, i goin to her place to collect books n also she wanna give out her husband`s clothes dat still brand new.. I guess i ned to repay back for her kindness. haiz.

To my buddy Khai, amcm percaye kape aku kene rembat?? haha. kalo bole nk panjangkn cite agi bt tk bole angkat ar ko suare mcm mat rep.. haha. Happy April Fool.. U my best buddy man.. Sori abt the prank.. Janji buat lagi next year.. haha.

To Epul, ko mcm paham ar nk kene aku April Fool joke ngan Andika change our position n make KP Champion. B4 ko buat tu joke, aku ngah msn ngan kwn aku bdk andika.. Dier 1st person tu kene kn aku sal nie joke.. haiz.. bt tkpe.. Happy April Fool..

To all, HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!!!..

ps: 1st april is wen people start to dun trust for others dat much, haha