Actually tis event was during Bulan Puasa 2007 @ Kampung Melayu wen i was at china. 3hrs performances. Juz Luv tis gelangggang. SCDF( Combined grp of Harapan, Ulan, CucuDatukMerah)Intro from 3 different grp plus 1st performance. Dikir Kita(Combined grp of Keris, Panjy, Dendang Mutiara, Durba Dua)2nd performance. Damn i missed it. Juz luv the intro. haha

2dae supposedly my workin shift is from 7am-3pm but have to work OT coz of stupid Flow Through (Large amount of stock came) n have to work extra till we finish staking up the stock which tok me 5hrs to clear all n my total workin time is 13hrs. N my manager if can wanna me to continue work from 7pm till 11pm. i Wake up since 5am. Imagine if i continue workin, 16hrs siak.. Kalo tk pengsan, tk tau ckap aper.. Den a customer reali pissed me off early in the morning. Like hell. Den in afternoon, an indian expat realli wasting my time n make the queue line longer. He cant make up his mind wat cigarette he want to buy n make tings worst he payin $11.60 in $1 coins n i keep repeating whether he have $ notes but he dun understand wat i am saying. Luckly there was an indian customer dat help translate for him. N i have to apologise to the other customer for waiting. haiz.. n i have to skip my training.. But luckly, 2mr is my off dae.. if nt, im sure i will be in bad mood to work.. Dat life in 7-11.

P.S: If anybody bored 2mr, plz contact me.. coz i will be bored toO. haha

remember i looked at u, u looked at me.
we had a love conection between us.
u told me u love me
i told u i love u
i gave u everything from me
u took all away
u had to leave me
u never said good-bye
but 2 years later i see u
i wrote to u
it said i love u
u said no
later then we never talk to each other
we just say hi or good-bye
months later u say i love u
but i moved one just like u did to me
well guess what ur the one with a broken heart just like me

I would like to congrat to anisah for pass her O Level. I reali proud of her n i kinda surprise wif the result dat she had shown n prove. Although she cant qualified for JC but atleast dat she could make it to poly. At least she prove to herself dat she can make it n i hope dat she would juz make a rite decisions n continue to move on although she cant get the courses dat she want. Hope the best for yrself n dun tink of giving up.. Love u dee.

On 23th, is used to be our 3 years anniversary and thought of purpose to her back but niat tk ke sampaian.. There a msg for u in my blog. Hope u can read it.

A 9 month baby can recognise a word n body parts.. Smart.

Life is full of twists n turns.. There no perfection in life even how careful people will be.. The onli tings dat confuse me is dat, i dun want to hurt people anymore by nt tell them abt secrets dat might be hurtful to them. But wen tey found out abt the secrets, they will get mad n will tink dat i want to hurt them... I want to save people frm get hurt.. what can i do???

2dae, my first dae working 711 at singapore expo. At least abit better den the previous 711. Most of the staff is malay. 1st first always nervous n also i have a history abt 711. Im quite scared to do sumting in 711. In the 1st place, im nt to sure whether i wanna join or nt but thanks to anisah, she motivate n give me sum support. I realli appreciate it. Anyways, i have to report at 9am n it quite hard for me to wake up early aft long of wakin up late. haha. Luckly, so far i can get along wif the other staff but im nt to sure abt the manager coz she seems garang.haha. Working 711 in expo like "makan gaji buta". haha. There nt alot of people except durin lunch time. I spent mostly walk around wif nuting to do. Dats how easy money is.. hahaha. But i want to see how long i can last. hehe.

p.s: Sori anisah if i make u sad yesterdae.. keep my words abt wat i said...
U most welcome to write down anyting at tis blog or view it by log in.
Tis song i dedicate to u..

Todae was damn tiring dae but enjoy n happy. Had to wake up early to attend a Youth Health Symposium at SMU. Basically its regarding of youth health like Smoking, Sex, Exercising n etc which youth nowadays shld n shld nt do. Anyways, i onli went for half dae n i ned to rush to Taman Warisan for a short performances. Its sux if u nt sure what bus link to whr wen in town. Everyting take MRT. Even wan to go from bugis to Cityhall also take Train. haha.

Aft performances, Last min met her at Plaza Sing to watch movie wif her fren. The movie is Boogeyman 2. Out of 5 i will give 3. The movie is, ok-ok la.. As for me, i feel very very very so the happy to meet her.. hahaha. I have tis same feeling like its my first time i met her for our first date. hehe. Den, ajak her to watch kuda kepang at Kampung Melayu near geylang there. Actually i wanted to watch wif my fren if i dun have any plan aft performance. But i decided to join her den bring her to watch if she want.. hehe.. its the 1st time for both of us to watch it live n half way the show, she has to go back n also she felt scared. Cant blame her coz its her 1st time. As for me i more to curiosity.. haha.. Den thought of sending her back hm to get the old feeling of sendin her hm but her mum picked her up. Nvm, Mayb next time.. Well, 2dae was great.

Thanks linie for being supportive unlike arip. Still cant forget the prank. iloveanisah.com. Waste my $1 of msging. haha

2dae i can sey dat i abit relax n happy aft i meet her early morning. I met her at 8am n we went to early morning cycling to pasir ris park which quite a long time we did nt do dat. We also had a picnic at the beach which remind me of old times. We juz have a conversation n jokes which wat people say " Time pass every fast wen we having fun" till we did nt notice its oredi noon. Aft a tortures n miserable 2 wks for me, i was relieve to see her. Express how much i miz her. Mayb i could do sumting to get her back. Hope i could see her again.. I luv her so much

Presenting the ORIGINAL Singer of CuppyCake Song
Amy Castle
Age 3




Lyrics
Cuppy Cake Song

You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear

This Song was recorded in 1992 but the video is 1994 and nw she is 18

Song Dedicated to Person dat i luv so much.

I cant do tis anymore. I try everyting n i juz cant get her off my mind. People can easily find replacement wen tey in tis situation but nt me. I luv sumone, i stick to sumone. But wen tings like tis happen, i juz dun Noe wat to do. I realli miz her, I still luv her. But i juz cant do anyting. How can i move on wif my life if i keep tinkin abt her?? Every single dae i been suffering in mentally n emotionally.. Sumtimes i juz forgotten dat she is nt wif me anymore, i ever wanted to kol her at nite coz last time i always kol her everynite. Can anybody tell me wat wrong wif me beside keep telling me to move on?? Its easy for people to say wen tey nt in my situations. I juz cant help it. Im sick n tired of feeling tis way. I tink want to try to find replacement nw. Its work for sum people. shld or shldnt? Coz the tings dat happening around me doesnt help at all. Tell me wat shld i do????????????????

Went out to met Mai n kaT which quite damn long time did nt met them. All loOk so different. haha. Met mai first at Tamp den met kat at Eunus. Teman dem go CDC tu register license. Smue kwn2 ku da nk ambik license. Da besar smue. But tinkin of it back, i tink i wanna take bike license since there nobody to stop me den but i will see how.. Den aft dat met khai at The Cathay. Chilling den wen back hm. Dat my life for nw.

i may sound stupid of wat i wrote yesterdae abt "i will nt give up n keep persevere"... N 2dae, i tink is best for me to move on wif my damn life aft i heard abt sumting. I tink the more i wait, more i feel hurt. Wat the use. haiz. Life sux actually wen u ar jobless, not skOoling, no money, ezlink has change to adult fare, been stayin at hm alot whereas people outside spend times, heart break. haiz.. nowdaes, my life is damn bored wif nuting. ZERO!. Have to wait to apply higher nitec aft the O level people get their result, DAMN LONG SIA!!. Wen to alot of job interview, nt 1 kol me. Frens all bz wif skOol. The person which i thought i can spent time during my holidaes is nt around wif me anymore. haiz. Life sux actually. I even feel like waitin for weekends is like waitin for a fruit to drop from a tree.. haiz... Wat can i do??

Thanks to all dat care n concern abt me. Im ok. Juz dat i have to admit dat i still luv her. Mayb tings happen coz of my wrong doings untill she felt its time to react. Sum people tings dat the previous post i wrote is quite harsh so i decided to delete it away. Mayb wats coz me to react so negetively bcoz of how i felt wen i found out tings n wat im tinkin during the process dat coz me to write all the negetive tings abt her den myself. I did quite hurt her alot during the 35th month of relationship. I did promise her to do sumting abt myself which i did try n forgot. Mayb sum people may tink wat kind of person she is, which i tink she is nt n mayb i did nt Noe her side of story. So rite nw, i will nt pick on who to blame but juz accept the fact n reality.

People will say dat im will be wasting of time, dat me. i will keep on doing n persevere wat i can until i tinks its time for me to move on wif my life.

I'm going to try to speak the words
that my heart wants you to know,
I want you to see what you mean to me
and why I love you so.

Nobody else can know my thoughts
and touch my soul like you can,
No one can melt my heart like you do
simply by holding my hand.

With a loving glance or a tender kiss,
you make my cares disappear
Warm thoughts of you surround me
and always keep you near.

I need nothing more from you than this-
to know that you'll always be mine
And the promise of my love in your life-
until the end of time.

I have to admit dat i miz her so much.

Aft trainin, chilling wif hakim at tm. Tok abt our problems which we have abt gals n wen i was otw hm in the bus, a grp of minahs play a song dat make me almost breakdown n cant stop tinkin abt her which add aft a wrecking dae wif emotionals. haiz. I may sound jiwang (sentimental) but if people do understand wat i been throught n lose a 35th month which tis month will be 3 years of relantionship. its sux.





Sinaran mata, (The eyes,)
cerita segalanya, (tell everything,)
duka lara terbentang, (all the hidden pain,)
memori semalam.. (in previous memories..)

Tinggal segala cinta, (all the love is left,)
tiada kembalinya, (will never come back,)
abadi kasih kita, (our eternal / everlasting love,)
kau bawa bersama, (you brought it with you,)
mimpi indah mekar, (beautiful dreams bloom,)
saat cinta bersemi, (the time when our love blossom,)
sedetik asrama syurga selamanya.. ( a moment of romance is heaven forever..)

*Pergilah rinduku, (my memories just go,)
hilanglah dirimu, (and be gone,)
tak sanggup menanggung, (I'm unable to handle,)
derita dikalbuku.. (all the pain that's in me..)

*pergilah sayangku, (my darling please go,)
bermula semula, (it starts again,)
semangat cintaku, (my spirit of love,)
membara kerana dia, (heats up because of her,)
tiada niat ku.. (it's not my intentions..)

Tersemat jiwa, (your faithful soul,)
setia bersamanya, (is kept together,)
cinta murni berdua, (beautiful love between the two,)
beribu tahun nya, (lasts thousands of years,)
mimpi indah mekar, (beautiful love happens,)
saat cinta besemi, (as our love blossoms,)
sedetik asmara syurga, (a moment of romance is heaven,)
selamanya.. (forever..)

*Repeat

People enjoy wif celebrations n parties wif great joy, joke n laughter. As for me, i had a no mood for countdown n i dun feel enjoyment at all. I dun Noe how shld i feel n react. Mayb its the end of it. Like same phrase " Gd bye sweet 2007, sey elo to new year" may its nt my destiny. I have to accept it wif broken heart which i thought tis month i could celebration our 3 years anniversary but i will juz have to forget it n let it be a fantasy.. Hope the best future for her. Thanks be wif me for last 35th month. Hope u will find happiness soOn.